WTF

ok WTF how come all the blogs i used to follow are now all gone.....

when i go to my blogger page it says im not following any blogs... im totally upset and sad that some how they are all gone..

:(

so down not much to say

sry i suck.. I have been so depressed about gaining so much weight... Im back to 126 and i want to die.. just die!

I started a work out dvd and am sticking to it...

I'm also having surgery and the only reason im looking forward to the surgery isnt because it will fix the problem im having but the surgery will make me not be able to eat much for a few days while i heal...

hoping that i loose weight from it plus the food I will be able to eat durring the process will be limited so im hoping that that combined with my workout i will loose... I have to loose... i cant go into summer being the fat slob i am now :(

voiceless

I suck... I'm sry... I've gained way to much and hate myself....

I should just disapear