Liquids, liquids, liquids...

Its only after noon but I feel I'll post now....

again sorry I havent posted as much... but I am determined to get this fat off m body...

things have been hard lately and I hate it.. I just want to leave this state and move away from everyone with my hubby and live in a warm beautiful place were I can just sit outside all day and not eat and walk everywhere...

newho I am still stuck at 120 ocording to the stupid scale this morning...even after barely eating yesterday....its ok tho cause I have decided to do a liquid fast till saturday.... I have a show on saturday in which I am wearing a strikeingly gorgeous wedding gown... I know I cant lose too much or the dress wont fit but I am bound to at least get under 120...

So today I have brought my waters with me to work and a crystal light water mix that helps with appitite control (love them) I will probably have a diet cola today since I didnt yeserday... I will continue with this untill saturday..my hubs works all day today and tmrw so I will prepare him something I dont wnat to eat tonight and tmrw and then friday I will be gone to rehearsal before he gets home so no worrys there.. I will say I ate before I left.

I did not purge yesterday and only took 3 laxs at the end of the night...its progress believe it or not...

my mood hasnt been much better.. still down in the dumps and feeling like a fatty loser... I hate how my body looks ...

Thank you to those who write kind words I know I dont always respond but I read them and they make me feel loved and accepted.. and they do help me alot to feel better.

Love you all