uhg weekends

Back from the weekend weight has been up and down.. one point got to 119.... didnt weigh in this morning  I think i'm back to 122.

I worked at the Warp Tour friday which was exhausting...my insomnia has been brutal and even after working outside all day friday I could only manage 4 hrs of sleep.

I'm glad the weekends over cause now I can be at work and its easier not to eat during the day. I am really starting to hate weekends.... neway I'm going to be trying to eat as little as possible for the rest of the month... it wont be to hard and if I can manage to book jobs for the weekends then I wont have to worry about them either..

I just gotta get this weight off one way or another. I cant stand my body at this point. in august I will be going on vacay and I want to finally be at 110 for it... but thats like 12lbs at least to loose by then.. the only way its going to happen is if I try and eat basically nothing at all... or as little as posible....I grocery shopped yesterday so theres food for the hubs to eat and if I make him dinner he usually doesnt pay attention to whether or not I'm eating any of it....

I've gotta do this....